We hear you, WomAn. We feel you, WomAn.
We see you.
We raise you up, Woman, together
as a tribe of loud, soft, hard, round, thin, thick, smooth, curious,
evolving Women. Together. We raise you up.
Take a breath with me, my lady, myself.
Let us go together and embody the Earth.
Mental Massage for december from michelle bernard.
rise up and be who you are.
Ending 15. Entering 16.
Michelle Bernard’s November Mental Massage from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.
while living through
see how beautiful
what would you let go of
if it would make your life
Here is my MOvement for November : The Spinal Twist
to re-align the physical and mental energies as we prepare for feasts of food and material.
Movement and breath are gifts worth cherishing every waking day.
They each offer pathways to vibrant health and intuitive expansion.
Dip into this delicious pleasure.
I am in love
The relationship I have with it now as an adult with a bank account,
and mutual funds
is more challenging than the one I had in my basement when I was 13.
I would lie in my bedroom with wallpaper-flowers, the Prince record blasting up to the kitchen, letting my mind play pictures and fantasies of what I wanted to experience.
Wishes and real-feeling scenes so far unlike the Iowa town where I lived.
It was ritual – to daydream. Daily.
I called it planning.
As a grown-up
my imagination is still my best partner, my friend
when I stop making it my enemy.
I must pause
and dream the same way I did in my bedroom with flowers.
A daydream, a plan, a mental massage that I truly love.
We’re always trying to get there, to make it!
So much self help is focused on teaching us how to help ourselves to more.
Get more. Have more. Earn more.
Maybe we could use a bit of help learning how to feel good about what we have.
What we have.
And not for any other reason than to feel good right now.
Call it gratitude.
Gratitude has become another puffy word, like the words authentic and love.
We toss these words up and fumble to catch them.
Why have they become so hard to hold, gently?
Could we let them sit within our grasp without squeezing so tight and slipping out of our hands?
I invite you to hold gratitude with both hands, with your thoughts, with your BOD and be still. Carry it. See it. Feel it.
Bring it up closer to you. Take a breath.
Maybe you’ve missed something.
Maybe you’ve been out there looking for more when there already exists so much more within you.
Feel grateful not because you’ve learned that doing this will work to bring more to you (though it might), and not because it makes you a good person (though it pretty much could), and not because feeling grateful is a strategy to change your energetic vibration (although it pretty much will).
Don’t feel grateful simply because you wanna ” make something happen”.
Feel grateful because it can illuminate the parts of you and your life that you may have overlooked
(due to all the wanting).
Feel grateful because this moment matters just as much as your next, just as much as 6 months from now, just as much as when you do have the right boyfriend, enough money, perfect abs, a promotion.
This moment is happening. It’s your life.
Be in it.
You and your life are worth Celebrating just as is.
You have made it! Here.
You are already here.
you’re a big boy now
turning 9 today
still just as centered and calm as when you turned 4
i named you after a bodybuilder, PORTER CATRELL
though your strength is deeper than BODy
they pull on your ears
fingers closing near your eyes
you don’t react –keep licking their little hands
on the airplane
(under the seat in front of me)
you’re quiet without medication-
only need a “shhh, it’s okay… i love you”/
a Manhattan dog needs rules.
taught you at 5 months old
no bark in the morning, you’ll wake the neighbors
so you grrrr instead, underbite protruding from your tight black lips
mr. porter, my model
you are my display of ZEN each day
you are a big boy now
i wanna grow
to be big
as you are naturally
when I open my eyes,
before my bano visit,
before the oatmeal in my wine goblet,
before I qualify whether I got enough /didn’t get enough / need more
(no worry cuz I nap for at least 10 minutes every day!),
when I open my eyes
and take a morning breath
I, then, say
.my morning ritual.
what’s good? every day.
get centered and listen to your answer.
Girl, you have fallen’ into some big ole holes, and I know how much it has hurt you.
I know you can barely breathe down there in your pursuit of “all there is”- down there gasping to create a relationship that validates you, unraveling in a job-change you thought would define you (but is attacking your beliefs about humanity), in the arduous pursuit of sustainable health insurance.
But you will get another opportunity to choose soon. Really.
In about 5 months you won’t need to keep cranberry juice in the fridge for your vodka and you won’t need to workout twice a day to keep your butt from blowing up because of the chocolate chip cookie dough.
Your angry prayers and creative visualization notebooks will move you to a safer ground.
Don’t stop doing that work!
One thing I learned from you is to state my desired outcome like I know for certain it will happen.
Especially when I have no idea how IT will happen, still say IT must.
With no alternative.
That worked for you.
Thanks for giving me that.
Here’s what I wish to give to you, my 10 year younger mE.
Stamp these in your belly.
1. Stand with your intuition. When you feel you know, you are correct. You do.
2. Don’t tell everyone all your detailed feelings.
Explain only when you have established trust. Folks you can trust will hold your feelings sacred instead of using your life as something casual to talk about.
3. Journal often. Try audio when you’re scared to write.
4. Finish writing ThemKids. It’s really good.
5. Stop fixing people. Oh God girl, I know it’s your nature, but please stop pushing the fix in your private life.
It will exhaust you and deplete the enthusiasm you need for your beliefs.
Simply, offer advice if you’re asked, but don’t beg anyone to take it.
6. Respect every woman you see. They are precious. You have so much in common. You do.
7. Protect your spiritual center. Let it expand. It will make you magical.
Life isn’t short for everyone. For some, it’s long.
Life is precious.
What always amazes me is that we get so many chances to be who we want to be.
Regret isn’t necessary.
You are not going to make a bad decision.
So every time you decide something, be as bold as brass. It all fits somewhere.
Each year, you’ll see, this life gets more and more meaningful,
and you will learn that sometimes
breaking the conventions and “supposed tos”
is what will bring you the most happiness.