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I remember when that lopsided tree in the backyard was one wind gust from falling down on our new house.

We closed on the house in late August. My first house. By November Hurricane Sandy almost caused our upstairs bedroom to crash into our kitchen. Sandy had pulled at least 14 trees out of the ground on surrounding streets. Welcome to the neighborhood.

I ended up leaving that little Cape Cod home anyway. My husband will continue to live in our house while we uncouple. I’ve mourned then found the calm to settle all that loss. I’m grateful for what those things were to me and what they made helped me become.

Things aren’t permanent. Stuff might last, it might not. And I’ve tried not to hold on to stuff as tightly as I used to. It’s a daily effort.

As I watch the sky go from gray to white to regular to gray, I feel Jose’s breath coming behind Irma’s.

I’m giving to the people who’ve survived Irma in the ways that I can.

I’m also giving thanks in general. Grateful.

I’m grateful for my freedom. My freedom to change. Freedom to let go when I need to or have to.

I’m grateful for the freedom (and courage) to move onward to what calls me forward.

reach.

reach.

beating under skin

that knows

certain uncertain 

life. 

pushing breath into sound.

she writes herself

with her body.

her stories dance.

I am a WILD journaler. I journal every morning of every day of every week with a pen.

I journal my feelings with dance whenever I get the chance. Won’t you join me?

See my JOURNALS HERE.

More about DANCE WITH THE WILD coming soon!

http://www.michellebernardspeaks.com

Solve the problem. An interview.

I am a transformational coach and fitness trainer which means I will give clients healthful tools, exercises, and processes that they can use for an eternity.
But here is MY exception: One must be willing and ready to step into one’s strength
with the courage to move past the subconscious limitations.

Strength, power, and courage cannot be given.
It is something we realize.

If you are not ready for the change and improvement that I will help you facilitate,
if you are afraid of moving more than a 5 pound weight at any point in your program,
if you do not wish to see yourself expand, if you complain a LOT, and if you are not ready to look deeper at your personal possibilities and move toward your greatest self, I am not your trainer.

But if you are interested in a steady, safe, and strong progression toward the person you desire to be, and if you have more courage you wish to express,
and if you believe life is worth living to the fullest, I think we are a great match!

And if not, I truly believe you probably will keep feeling exactly how you feel, and you will never be able to have the body or life you desire.

You must BELIEVE and BEHAVE like you’re worth your transformation before it can actually happen.

Can you be happy while in pain?

Can you be happy and at the same time feel like you’re going through something awful, that’s ripping at your muscle of faith, and squeezing your hope into a dark hole?

Yes.

I am.

Cuz there’s a part of me that has a reserve of faith, I never run out.

My imagination keeps pulling me away from what I see in reality and deep into what I feel is possible.

Call to yourself what you feel is possible, no matter how things look to everybody else.

 

Michelle Bernard’s – My prayer – a moving meditation. from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.