Can you be happy and at the same time feel like you’re going through something awful, that’s ripping at your muscle of faith, and squeezing your hope into a dark hole?
Cuz there’s a part of me that has a reserve of faith, I never run out.
My imagination keeps pulling me away from what I see in reality and deep into what I feel is possible.
Call to yourself what you feel is possible, no matter how things look to everybody else.
Who would you be without your fear?
Shakti Gawain wrote Creative Visualization, a remarkable little book that gave birth to the whole law of attraction child!
I read it when I was about 28. My Saturn Returns was simply horrible. During that tunnel through darkness, I wrote poetry on the floor of my Los Angeles apartment trying to forgive myself for living a wandering adult life.
I deeply felt life was punishing me for being an artist,
accusing me for continually desiring new palates,
shaking a finger at my operation to shape and sculpt new experiences because
monotony bored my senses.
With the right college degrees and wherewithal to manage, train, and supervise, why did I voluntarily seek a life path that promised instability, that guaranteed uncertainty?
The tone of my journals keep indicating my unresolved obsession with that same question every 10 years. Now at 47, I face another internal and external rumbling for change.
I’ll have to create a pathway to a land of dreams using my tools: faith and art.
I must let myself
Let go of ideals and losses. Be who I am.
In retrospect of the 47 years of fear and curiosity, life is as life does, meanwhile
I have created a me I like and trust.
This year, I have been helped into a better acceptance of knowing myself with support from these pieces of art.
The War of Art, Steven Pressfield – Confronts the courage to create
#Girlboss, Sophia Amorusa Tells how she created a lucrative business with only a-being-herself business plan.
Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert – Reflects on creating: the acknowledgement and acceptance
re-reading The Artist’s Way – Navigates the way the artist unlocks creation
The Motivation Manifesto, Brandon Burhard – Strong call to action: spend deliberate time and energy interacting with living!
30 days to write yourself alive – an online writing course with Andrea Balt
listening to stories from my courageous girlfriends – not naming them, obviously, but insert your people here…
So, to the liberated art (artists) – THANK YOU for showing me myself
by showing yourself
Stepping into more, here’s to the wild future – 2016.
thanks for reading today,
We’re always trying to get there, to make it!
So much self help is focused on teaching us how to help ourselves to more.
Get more. Have more. Earn more.
Maybe we could use a bit of help learning how to feel good about what we have.
What we have.
And not for any other reason than to feel good right now.
Call it gratitude.
Gratitude has become another puffy word, like the words authentic and love.
We toss these words up and fumble to catch them.
Why have they become so hard to hold, gently?
Could we let them sit within our grasp without squeezing so tight and slipping out of our hands?
I invite you to hold gratitude with both hands, with your thoughts, with your BOD and be still. Carry it. See it. Feel it.
Bring it up closer to you. Take a breath.
Maybe you’ve missed something.
Maybe you’ve been out there looking for more when there already exists so much more within you.
Feel grateful not because you’ve learned that doing this will work to bring more to you (though it might), and not because it makes you a good person (though it pretty much could), and not because feeling grateful is a strategy to change your energetic vibration (although it pretty much will).
Don’t feel grateful simply because you wanna ” make something happen”.
Feel grateful because it can illuminate the parts of you and your life that you may have overlooked
(due to all the wanting).
Feel grateful because this moment matters just as much as your next, just as much as 6 months from now, just as much as when you do have the right boyfriend, enough money, perfect abs, a promotion.
This moment is happening. It’s your life.
Be in it.
You and your life are worth Celebrating just as is.
You have made it! Here.
You are already here.
We’re a quarter of the way through this glorious year, mate!
Remember your big dreams for 2015?
They are worth your attention and discipline!
For many of our goals, we need to assemble with groups of like-minded, focused, tenacious souls who simply recognize our greatness and cheer us on.
You and I, we can do that for each other… right here!
Here are a few of my beLoved goals for the year:
✘ Publish my book for sale on Amazon
✘ Submit articles to my favorite online magazines like Rebelle Society, The Phoenix Soul, Blackberry A Magazine
✘ Use my TRX once a week
✘ Do scorpion pose
✘ Get THE WANDERING PEBBLE up and filled with art
✘ Make a fitness/wellness video every month!
Expect to see a new VID here every month!
So please, join me in fulfilling your passions.
What do you want to see come from your vastness of possibility?
Then come back through and show me your realized goal!
Girl, you have fallen’ into some big ole holes, and I know how much it has hurt you.
I know you can barely breathe down there in your pursuit of “all there is”- down there gasping to create a relationship that validates you, unraveling in a job-change you thought would define you (but is attacking your beliefs about humanity), in the arduous pursuit of sustainable health insurance.
But you will get another opportunity to choose soon. Really.
In about 5 months you won’t need to keep cranberry juice in the fridge for your vodka and you won’t need to workout twice a day to keep your butt from blowing up because of the chocolate chip cookie dough.
Your angry prayers and creative visualization notebooks will move you to a safer ground.
Don’t stop doing that work!
One thing I learned from you is to state my desired outcome like I know for certain it will happen.
Especially when I have no idea how IT will happen, still say IT must.
With no alternative.
That worked for you.
Thanks for giving me that.
Here’s what I wish to give to you, my 10 year younger mE.
Stamp these in your belly.
1. Stand with your intuition. When you feel you know, you are correct. You do.
2. Don’t tell everyone all your detailed feelings.
Explain only when you have established trust. Folks you can trust will hold your feelings sacred instead of using your life as something casual to talk about.
3. Journal often. Try audio when you’re scared to write.
4. Finish writing ThemKids. It’s really good.
5. Stop fixing people. Oh God girl, I know it’s your nature, but please stop pushing the fix in your private life.
It will exhaust you and deplete the enthusiasm you need for your beliefs.
Simply, offer advice if you’re asked, but don’t beg anyone to take it.
6. Respect every woman you see. They are precious. You have so much in common. You do.
7. Protect your spiritual center. Let it expand. It will make you magical.
Life isn’t short for everyone. For some, it’s long.
Life is precious.
What always amazes me is that we get so many chances to be who we want to be.
Regret isn’t necessary.
You are not going to make a bad decision.
So every time you decide something, be as bold as brass. It all fits somewhere.
Each year, you’ll see, this life gets more and more meaningful,
and you will learn that sometimes
breaking the conventions and “supposed tos”
is what will bring you the most happiness.
Recently, the promises of the Law of Attraction have started to get on my last nerve.
The LoA has become a die-hard STRATEGY taught to get folks to ride the fast train to the acquisition of their goals– to be able to attract new, SHINY, super-sized STUFF like cars, jobs, tight BODs, mates, six-figures…
Recently, I’ve heard tons of folks complaining they’re not seeing their fortunes delivered, all wondering what they’re doing wrong!
Nothing. Except you must add the real work:
TRANSFORMATION of behavior.
BECOME the person you need to be to live the life you desire to live.
Way before I was ever introduced to this LoA tool to rev up luck,
I used plain ole day-dreaming.
And there was no TRY attached to it.
I just envisioned movies of myself doing my dream.
I behaved as if my dream was already REAL.
I was the seed, the bud, and the blossom.
I was seeing, talking, and acting with absolute certainty that my dream was REAL.
I wasn’t TRYING to attract it.
I never TRIED to align with it.
I never TRIED anything.
I imagined and then studied what I need to DO
to become what I desired.
I BEHAVED and prepared for it to happen without fail,
and with faith enough to hurdle fear and suffocate the sound of crows.
To be extremely honest, I probably sounded and looked crazy to folks. I remember people giving me that peculiar look, like “you poor child..”
Now, I believe it’s totally mad-crazy to hatch a nest of excuses why you can’t do the things your heart burns for, and it’s a travesty to imagine awakening 10 years from now in your skin soiled with regret.
Believe, then BEHAVE your way into the life you are worth living.
Whatever you are doing right now, shows what you really and truly have FAITH in.
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Who do you need to become to live the life you desire?