Can you be happy while in pain?

Can you be happy and at the same time feel like you’re going through something awful, that’s ripping at your muscle of faith, and squeezing your hope into a dark hole?

Yes.

I am.

Cuz there’s a part of me that has a reserve of faith, I never run out.

My imagination keeps pulling me away from what I see in reality and deep into what I feel is possible.

Call to yourself what you feel is possible, no matter how things look to everybody else.

 

Michelle Bernard’s – My prayer – a moving meditation. from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.

made it to the future.

shakti gawain quote

Shakti Gawain wrote Creative Visualization, a remarkable little book that gave birth to the whole law of attraction child!

I read it when I was about 28.  My Saturn Returns was simply horrible. During that tunnel through darkness, I wrote poetry on the floor of my Los Angeles apartment trying to forgive myself for living a wandering adult life. 

I deeply felt life was punishing me for being an artist,

accusing me for continually desiring new palates,

shaking a finger at my operation to shape and sculpt new experiences because

monotony bored my senses.

With the right college degrees and wherewithal to manage, train, and supervise, why did I voluntarily seek a life path that promised instability, that guaranteed uncertainty?

 

The tone of my journals keep indicating my unresolved obsession with that same question every 10 years.  Now at 47, I face another internal and external rumbling for change.

I’ll have to create a pathway to a land of dreams using my tools:  faith and art.

I must let myself

be.

Let go of ideals and losses.  Be who I am.

In retrospect of the 47 years of fear and curiosity, life is as life does, meanwhile

I have created a me I like and trust.

This year, I have been helped into a better acceptance of knowing myself with support from these pieces of art.

The War of Art, Steven Pressfield – Confronts the courage to create
#Girlboss, Sophia Amorusa   Tells how she created a lucrative business with only a-being-herself business plan.
Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert – Reflects on creating: the acknowledgement and acceptance
re-reading The Artist’s Way – Navigates the way the artist unlocks creation
The Motivation Manifesto, Brandon Burhard – Strong call to action: spend deliberate time and energy interacting with living!

 

plus

30 days to write yourself alive  –  an online writing course with Andrea Balt

and

listening to stories from my courageous girlfriends – not naming them, obviously, but insert your people here…

 

So, to the liberated art (artists) – THANK YOU  for showing me myself

by showing yourself

 

rumi bewilderment

Stepping into more, here’s to the wild future – 2016.

 

sophia quote

image
You: the art.

 

thanks for reading today,

michelle bernard

http://www.sculptedbybernard.com

get more

We’re always trying to get there, to make it!

So much self help is focused on teaching us how to help ourselves to more.

Get more. Have more.  Earn more.  

 

 

Maybe we could use a bit of help learning how to feel good about what we have.  

Right now.

What we have.

 

And not for any other reason than to feel good right now.

Call it gratitude.

 

Gratitude has become another puffy word, like the words authentic and love.

We toss these words up and fumble to catch them.

Why have they become so hard to hold, gently?  

Could we let them sit within our grasp without squeezing so tight and slipping out of our hands?

 

I invite you to hold gratitude with both hands, with your thoughts, with your BOD and be still. Carry it. See it. Feel it.

Bring it up closer to you.  Take a breath.  

Maybe you’ve missed something.  
Maybe you’ve been out there looking for more when there already exists so much more within you.

Feel grateful not because you’ve learned that doing this will work to bring more to you (though it might), and not because it makes you a good person (though it pretty much could), and not because feeling grateful is a strategy to change your energetic vibration (although it pretty much will).

Don’t feel grateful simply because you wanna ” make something happen”.

Feel grateful because it can illuminate the parts of you and your life that you may have overlooked

(due to all the wanting).

Feel grateful because this moment matters just as much as your next, just as much as 6 months from now, just as much as when you do have the right boyfriend, enough money, perfect abs, a promotion. 

This moment is happening.  It’s your life.

Be in it.  

You and your life are worth Celebrating just as is.

You have made it!  Here.

You are already here.

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show and tell

We’re a quarter of the way through this glorious year, mate!

Remember your big dreams for 2015?

They are worth your attention and discipline!

 

For many of our goals, we need to assemble with groups of like-minded, focused, tenacious souls who simply recognize our greatness and cheer us on.

You and I, we can do that for each other… right here!

 

Here are a few of my beLoved goals for the year:

✘ Publish my book for sale on Amazon

✘ Submit articles to my favorite online magazines like Rebelle Society, The Phoenix Soul, Blackberry A Magazine

✘ Use my TRX once a week

✘ Do scorpion pose

✘ Get THE WANDERING PEBBLE up and filled with art

✘ Make a fitness/wellness video every month!

Expect to see a new VID here every month!

 

So please, join me in fulfilling your passions.

 

What do you want to see come from your vastness of possibility?

 

Tell me.

Then come back through and show me your realized goal!

 

http://www.sculptedbybernard.com