Can you be happy while in pain?

Can you be happy and at the same time feel like you’re going through something awful, that’s ripping at your muscle of faith, and squeezing your hope into a dark hole?

Yes.

I am.

Cuz there’s a part of me that has a reserve of faith, I never run out.

My imagination keeps pulling me away from what I see in reality and deep into what I feel is possible.

Call to yourself what you feel is possible, no matter how things look to everybody else.

 

Michelle Bernard’s – My prayer – a moving meditation. from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.

made it to the future.

shakti gawain quote

Shakti Gawain wrote Creative Visualization, a remarkable little book that gave birth to the whole law of attraction child!

I read it when I was about 28.  My Saturn Returns was simply horrible. During that tunnel through darkness, I wrote poetry on the floor of my Los Angeles apartment trying to forgive myself for living a wandering adult life. 

I deeply felt life was punishing me for being an artist,

accusing me for continually desiring new palates,

shaking a finger at my operation to shape and sculpt new experiences because

monotony bored my senses.

With the right college degrees and wherewithal to manage, train, and supervise, why did I voluntarily seek a life path that promised instability, that guaranteed uncertainty?

 

The tone of my journals keep indicating my unresolved obsession with that same question every 10 years.  Now at 47, I face another internal and external rumbling for change.

I’ll have to create a pathway to a land of dreams using my tools:  faith and art.

I must let myself

be.

Let go of ideals and losses.  Be who I am.

In retrospect of the 47 years of fear and curiosity, life is as life does, meanwhile

I have created a me I like and trust.

This year, I have been helped into a better acceptance of knowing myself with support from these pieces of art.

The War of Art, Steven Pressfield – Confronts the courage to create
#Girlboss, Sophia Amorusa   Tells how she created a lucrative business with only a-being-herself business plan.
Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert – Reflects on creating: the acknowledgement and acceptance
re-reading The Artist’s Way – Navigates the way the artist unlocks creation
The Motivation Manifesto, Brandon Burhard – Strong call to action: spend deliberate time and energy interacting with living!

 

plus

30 days to write yourself alive  –  an online writing course with Andrea Balt

and

listening to stories from my courageous girlfriends – not naming them, obviously, but insert your people here…

 

So, to the liberated art (artists) – THANK YOU  for showing me myself

by showing yourself

 

rumi bewilderment

Stepping into more, here’s to the wild future – 2016.

 

sophia quote

image
You: the art.

 

thanks for reading today,

michelle bernard

http://www.sculptedbybernard.com