Shakti Gawain wrote Creative Visualization, a remarkable little book that gave birth to the whole law of attraction child!
I read it when I was about 28. My Saturn Returns was simply horrible. During that tunnel through darkness, I wrote poetry on the floor of my Los Angeles apartment trying to forgive myself for living a wandering adult life.
I deeply felt life was punishing me for being an artist,
accusing me for continually desiring new palates,
shaking a finger at my operation to shape and sculpt new experiences because
monotony bored my senses.
With the right college degrees and wherewithal to manage, train, and supervise, why did I voluntarily seek a life path that promised instability, that guaranteed uncertainty?
The tone of my journals keep indicating my unresolved obsession with that same question every 10 years. Now at 47, I face another internal and external rumbling for change.
I’ll have to create a pathway to a land of dreams using my tools: faith and art.
I must let myself
Let go of ideals and losses. Be who I am.
In retrospect of the 47 years of fear and curiosity, life is as life does, meanwhile
I have created a me I like and trust.
This year, I have been helped into a better acceptance of knowing myself with support from these pieces of art.
The War of Art, Steven Pressfield – Confronts the courage to create
#Girlboss, Sophia Amorusa Tells how she created a lucrative business with only a-being-herself business plan.
Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert – Reflects on creating: the acknowledgement and acceptance
re-reading The Artist’s Way – Navigates the way the artist unlocks creation
The Motivation Manifesto, Brandon Burhard – Strong call to action: spend deliberate time and energy interacting with living!
30 days to write yourself alive – an online writing course with Andrea Balt
listening to stories from my courageous girlfriends – not naming them, obviously, but insert your people here…
So, to the liberated art (artists) – THANK YOU for showing me myself
by showing yourself
Stepping into more, here’s to the wild future – 2016.