absolutely.

my folks wanted normal.
i got nods when i wore the beige suit (this happened Twice in all my 49 years).
i grew up around crossed fingers that I’d learn
hobby don’t make no money.
that would have to happen from magic.
so i went out into the wilderness and hunted degrees, certs, and validation– i even dry cleaned and starched a white collared shirt
i did very good to grow-up and be —not me
though wild chocked me with its vines squeezing for books to be birthed,
books to be purged from poetry + pain,
books to be rinsed from journals stashed in dusty cardboard boxes  
but when i heard the whisper from the muse at the nape of my neck
i could, no more, deny 
she said go be
be like those explorers you spy , like James Baldwin, Toni Morrison, Joyce Maynard, the ones who wore wide floppy felt hats covering one eye.
meet them and sip cappuccino til 3 then wine till your journals swell.
go on
be lifted up from your juliette balcony by the magical balloon filled with the air from your imagination and meaning.
both have the power to raise you up, even when it rains.
normal, at this point, is absolutely impossible.
Michelle Bernard listening to her song

the leader.

beyond exhaustion
knees stiff from spinning
heels sore from the pace
lips tired of saying my lines
i found another breath in you
before flatlining into fear, a fate that could permanently end curiosity,
you pressed into my chest and gave me life again
revival.
hold my hand
pull me safely to the wings
away from the trip wire of resentment that runs
the world’s stage
i will let you
position me
set my wrist
turn my chin
place my feet
even though i prefer to lead when i dance
sometimes you have to follow.
Michelle Bernard

what you need.

your heart will be persistent

even if you leave it to wither in a shoe box

even if you flatten it and use it as a bookmark to save your place

even if you bury it in the garden between the bossy rows of peppermint

your heart will keep on trying to tell you

what you need to know

to be able to survive

to be able to go on

to rise

to be free.

when you are ready to listen

when you are ready to know

when you’re ready to let go

your heart will say to you 

you’re the one that I want.

BE YOU.

Not expected.

the mist can see me through my window.
I see it too. It cannot hide behind the glow from street lamps.
It was raining when the dogs woke up.
It’s still raining now.
this is certainly not the way I expected to experience the last days of April:
wrapped in two scarves, socks up my legs, and a fur-lined hat near the front door.
I wanted flowers out my window
and fresh air to blow into my apartment while I get ready for bed.
but
I do like the stillness of this night.
 
And I like how time hangs onto the mist
giving more evening
more slowdown
breath
and
less
in my mind
so I can see the beauty
in this foggy night
 

Michelle Bernard: not expected, a poem for the season from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.

 

longer.

i love ya
tomorrow
i wiggled into you
(you were worth the wait)
inhaling
through grateful hips
shoulders praising morning
i pointed these feet
east
toward Creation
while white strands caught my eyelashes
i increased the decision
taking longer strides
(trusting myself for
the 108th time)
letting what I felt
be felt
by
the air
and
sky
swallowed the noise
letting the sound of light play
from my body
making the days
longer
 

Michelle Bernard: longer – a poem from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.

 

the women.

the women.

me.
explorer of dream.  
smile
casting magic on those in her orbit.  
knowing eyes
peeking out from pink and turquoise
feathers.
striped and barefoot and bejeweled.
sweaty, whirling hips.
painting the sky with patchouli hands. 

and

me.  
head tilted.
curious.
grey wool exterior, lined inside.
big eyes squinting.  taming Questions. 
determined for answers.
once prodded, bullied.
once,  
forgot her name.  
Determined.
close up, no injury.
underneath bronzed body armor—
dark, dried up, salty invalidation
chipping off.

give her little wings.

 

 

http://www.michellebernardspeaks.com

like magic.

What are you waiting for?

No, really.

Are you actually waiting? For the right moment, the courage, a magic stick to tap the back of your ear and bless you with stock, proficiency, and magnetism?

Well, here it is. 

I am waving my… uh… give me a moment…

umbrella.

Pretend it is the wand you’ve been expecting, and let it anoint you with 

the drive and decision you always hoped this day would give you.

TAP!

Now, become the person you’ve imagined. 

 

rise.

Michelle Bernard

www.michellebernardspeaks.com

wellness-2

visit my website for inspiration and transformation

do you let it go?

What to do…

when the person you thought you’d love forever

makes you sad, manipulates, cannot relate to your desire for growth?

How do you break-up with a best friend?

Do you? 

Do you stay when you’ve grown in different directions?

Kids know how to find friends who align with them.

We need to do the same as adults.

You are not a bad person to want joy and alignment.

rise,

Michelle 

http://www.michellebernardspeaks.com

marking life.

just michelle

Climbing yesterday.

sutures of creativity

grief

bravery

longing

music

triumph

stitched into my brain.

mountains of experience.

peaks made from memories, 

marking life.

climbing yesterday: Michelle Bernard.Dance with the WiLD from Michelle Bernard on Vimeo.

 

This is from my movement journal. I write to journal, too.

I am a WiLD journaler. I sit with paper/pen/cold coffee every morn of every day. The journal is a mirror.

I have seen myself.

 

rise,

Michelle B

www.michellebernardspeaks.com

your pot of gold.

Who isn’t hoping to find the prized corridor that leads to amazing fitness and freaky weight-loss?

And who doesn’t want the path be moderately convenient: not to impede upon your current schedule and not cause any discomfort?

  • Change requires things to change. 
  • Change requires new habits.
  • Change requires awareness, especially about what needs to change.

TRUE OR NOT TRUE

  • You will know everything you need to know if you read a good health and fitness book. WT…? No!

Sorry, but it’s just NOT TRUE.

You can build a house out of the truckloads of diet books on Amazon, yet there’s an obesity epidemic in every town.  Reading Browsing the diet books we get for Christmas ain’t gonna do it.

Plus, you and I have different body types. Every body responds a touch differently to exercise and food.

beyond reading

You stand to learn more about YOURSELF and YOUR body when you take the ACTION prescribed in the book.

TRUE OR NOT TRUE

  • You can lose 20 pounds in 4 months, if you workout 4 days a week.

Yeah, maybe.

I wouldn’t say it’s impossible, but I would say I hope you have a workout log. I hope you’re planning to advance-schedule ALL your workouts, log the actual exercises, and track your progress each week.

And if losing 20 pounds in 4 months really matters to you, I suggest you keep a journal and write your feelings. Write your goals. Confront your fears. Confront your feelings.

Because 20 pounds isn’t worth a drop of water. A twenty pound weight change is like finding gold!

You’re gonna need to dig and remain tenacious, focused, and committed.

Look at a snapshot of one of my workout journals. Yep, that’s a page of my DUMP–it’s what I call it when I’m dumping out my feelings. Like clearing out my inner obstacles. 

Beside it is the book I’m writing now. It’s a workout log. Plus, more. 

For 20 less pounds, my book will help you. It’ll be ready by Earth Day, in time for Spring!

 

 

TRUE OR NOT TRUE

  • You can transform your body all by yourself.

Tremendously unlikely.

Sorry, but it’s pretty much NOT TRUE.

by myself

And if it were TRUE, it’d be a rare phenomenon.

Generally, we can go farther and achieve more with support, guidance, coaching, and the elevation of standard we energetically pick up by simply being in the company of folks with similar goals and elevated habits!

A trainer, a teacher, or a friend will give you one or all the above. Peer groups you create in exercise spaces or a meet-up or a Facebook group help.

You NEED accountability!

Go ahead and find people to celebrate you. 

Keep up with the Rabbits: people that keep you running at a faster pace of belief and action.

All this is better than trying to do your goals by yourself.

pot of gold

Transform your habits, transform your body.

  • Keep notes when you read.
  • Post reminders or quotes from the books that inspire you.
  • Advance-schedule your workouts.  
  • Track your progress.
  • Journal.
  • Find a teacher, trainer, or a friend to draft you to your pot of gold.

 

live above ordinary,

Michelle